FADED BEGINNINGS PART 2

By my junior year the older boy i had been dating was history and I had been accepted by the clique of girls I wanted to be friends with.

The popular preppy party girls.

I felt accepted and fell right in with these girls and we had alot of fun and partied every weekend!

Going to house party's and getting drunk off our asses with, again, older boys.

Sneaking out to party with the same older guys.

Riding back roads while drunk and going to creek parties to find free alcohol.

We had plenty of access to alcohol thou, the group of older guys we partied with would take our money and buy what we wanted or we could get credit at a local store/gas station because it was run by several of the same guys.

Let me stop and clear up any confusion this wasn't a pedo type situation with the older guys and us- we were aged anywhere between 16-18 and these guys were prob 22 at the most.

Let me tell you. Y'all. I don't know how I managed to get home many nights, without wrecking my car.

Yes. I was driving. Drunk. At age 16. Drunk as fuck!

It was highly irresponsible and dumb as hell!!

Not to excuse my behaviour but the 1990's was a different time. Extreme awareness had not been brought to things like teen drunk driving like there is now.

I knew better but to be completely honest i did not give two fucks.

It felt good.

So I continued!

It took away the still burning pain I had inside of me due to moving from Michigan to Tennessee and leaving behind my beloved sport of basketball and an almost guaranteed full ride on scholarship to college from basketball.

Not to mention leaving behind my family and my lifelong friends.

That shit fucking sucked.

I was 15 and felt my life as I knew it was taken from me and I didn't care about my future anymore.

Drinking, partying, fucking, etc. had become my new normal.

My new normal would be abruptly coming to a screeching halt during the summer of 1996 and nothing would ever be the same again.....

TO BE CONTINUED